If I Keep Thinking Or Writing About Something. Maybe It's A Part Of My Identity

There are people that fought bravely against something. Sometimes, there's a news that a person who has nothing keeps fighting against an organization for years relentlessly. The thing they fought against became their identity, without that thing they would be nothing. When they are being mentioned, it's always the things that they fought against come along. Never them coming alone in the conversation.

I want to project this to the things i have written in the last couple of months. There are a lot of posts that i mentioned my ex, even in this post. I realized that i took the relationship i had with her and made it a big part of my identity. Everywhere i went to, people seems to remember me along with her. I don't have the answer for the following question, maybe it's too cruel for me at the moment to speak it out loud.

• Did i spend the last couple of years building an identity around something that is not in my control? Maybe that's why i became directionless, lost when the relationship is gone.
• What is the next move?
• How not to repeat the past's mistakes? I learnt the lesson, but we do the best what we used to, especially when we did it for years.
• How to build another identity?

This is a continuation of the post after reading a post from Reddit about how to get out of a rut. https://www.reddit.com/r/GetMotivated/comments/6721j3/discussion_is_there_anyone_else_out_there_who/

Maybe the thing was that i didn't live my own life, didn't have anything good to do with my life, i leveled up, but did i level up external things? Or is it me that leveled up in the mindset and perspective? Did i had any new life experience and realization? I know that i got new experience in traveling, but now i realize they are external, i can easily tell because I was still anxious calling the hotel for booking after 3 years of traveling.

They say exercise helps, i will try doing that everyday from now on.