On New Situation

I want to change things, change how the day goes by. I want to go out and fuck around but i don't really know where to go and what to do out there. There's no exposure for me out there, i always go to the same old places, do the same old things and rarely tries new things.

Last week, i exposed myself to new thing, went to the english club and found out that it was very fun. Now i think that i should join that company trip in July. Come to think that i know nobody in the company is a shitty reason because i didn't know anyone in the english club either, i could ask to join their company anytime but i have to make the excuse that i don't know no one so that i could avoid it and fall back to the same old habit, never expose myself to the world.

What i have to change now is not my habit of what to do at what time, but rather which activities that expose myself out there and meet more people, getting to know things more, not shrinking in a corner and know nothing about life.

No matter how hard i do the self improvement, what i've been trying in the past 2 years didn't work, how could it work now? I'm really the nice guy that don't try new thing but keep trying harder on things that doesn't work, what a shame.