On New Things And Time
Just got my new phone case, kinda like the same as the previous one. I intended to buy the same as the previous one but couldn't find it, so i bought another one that is similar, the only difference is the texture. The latter has smooth texture but this one is has matte texture.
It's not that i'm not happy with the new one, but i just realize why don't i enjoy the new one and let the old one go? Why would i try and find the exact same one as the old one? Is it because it's the one i liked the most so far? But what if there are more out there that is better? Then i realize that i've been living with the scarcity mindset for a long time, now i should switch to the abundance mindset, if it's not good, i will find another one later, I keep reminding myself that i shouldn't settle down with the first thing i find. I remind myself this because that mindset has stuck within me for so long, I keep going to the same food store, same Circle K, same retail store and refuse to try new ones, what if they are better? What if i like the new one more?
Then i remind myself things that i thought was the best option but they were not. For example, back then when i was younger, i thought the PC is supreme to a laptop because the laptop uses battery and it's small. But, after growing a bit older, i prefer the laptop more, it's agreeable that the performance is never comparable with a PC but it's lighter, i could carry it around and do my things. I hated auto transmission motorcycle but now i think they are okay, riding in the city is even easier, moreover, it has a trunk that i could pack my stuff inside. The same thing with phone, i used to think that i could never be able to find the perfect phone, Xiaomi was the only option that i had because the ratio of price/performance was way higher than Samsung and Iphone, now i have a small Samsung, it's lighter, smaller, usable. It's weird that i like it more even though it has less battery capacity and cost more than the Xiaomi on the same class, the performance is noticeably lower. This has nothing to do with the phone but more to do with me because i changed, maybe i don't realize but i change a bit everyday, i needed different things.
Let's stick with the phone example a bit longer. The first few week i got quite frustrated because it couldn't do some particular things like i used to do with the previous one such as the fingerprint is not as fast after applying the screen protector compare to the previous one. It has less slots for fingerprint, the battery drains faster compared to the Xiaomi one. But, after like 2 month, i was happy with the way it is, now i accepted the fact that there are things that cannot compare to the last one, it shines in other aspects, these aspects were ones that i never expected. It's smoother, more reliable, lighter, easy to put into a pocket, tougher in the phone case and it looks better.
This may have a thing or two with my ex, sometimes i convince myself that my ex will eventually reach out to me because she rushed to the new relationship way too fast, she just needed to find someone to replace the space when she left me. Now i just think it's okay, i don't know if it works out for her, i wish her the best but i also realized that if it works out, she will like the person more and eventually never forget about me, there are things that she could never find from someone else that could do as good as me, but there are things that she had never tried or experience, maybe she changed everyday like the way we all do and now she is more content with what she has at the moment. And that's okay, i have to let her go so i could try new things and be content with it.
