On taking time to think

I'm 26 and i have a lot of time. I don't know if i have quarter life crisis or something, but beside my 9-5 remote job, i don't feel like having anything else. I have friends but i only hang out with them sometimes, I tries many hobbies but haven't found the one i enjoy. It's just i always try and find things, chasing things that people say such as "find a hobby", "put yourself out there" but never felt anything. All the connection feel shallow, all the hobby, the same, i only feel them on shallow level. Maybe i was just finding the same feeling when i used to be a kid, nothing much to do back then but when i did something, i felt like drowning in it. For example, i found out about the game Need For Speed: Most Wanted, the 2005 version in 2013. I know it sounds crazy, but back then there was a lot of mods that i could apply to the game, when i was drowning in it, i never felt lonely, never feel like shit. It's not about using video games to kill the time, it was that feeling when i was truely passionate about it, that nothing else matter. I felt confident, i was looking forward to coming home and apply the new mods that i found while attending school.
But now, i don't get to taste that feeling anymore.

But lately i realize that, maybe it's the FOMO feeling, maybe the i was too scared of the feeling being left behind in life, most of my friends are married, some is getting married soon, and me? i just ended a 4 years relationship.
Friends are starting business, buying stuff, i'm still here working 9-5 job and travelling. Sometimes, i feel like being alive while i'm on a trip, going out and explore the world, but also in that trip, i felt the uncertainty of the future ahead, which clearly ruined the rest of the trip because i kept thinking that people are still grinding but i keep spending time consuming, exploring the world but focusing and producing that matter to me, i knew that something has to change or something was missing, but cannot figure out what it was.
I mean, i was having a good time, but was having a bad time. All the worries about the uncertainty of the future was ruining me. I never took the time to really think for my self, the pattern of my thought is only one way, it tries to bring me down, i never really take time to really appreciate all the things that i have, never really take time to feel contend, i'm not everything i wanted to be yet, but that doesn't mean i have nothing.
Here's an example, we usually tend to think of the financial situation as being rich or not being rich, we could afford the new phone or not, like there are only 2 options in life. We always tend to think that there are only 2 ends of the spectrum, but there are still the middle ground between these spectrum, we could have enough money to live a good life without being rich, we could choose other phone. Life offer lots of choices, and as long as we feel like we are moving in the right direction, we could take some time to appreciate what we have. Sometime we look back in life and appreciate how far things has gotten better.