On "The Magic Is In The Work We Avoid"

I've always been a workaholic, even when the work doesn't bring any value or money. I'm well aware of where the workaholic thoughts within me come from, part of it came from the grinding community and blue pill red pill stuff. But today we are not talking about these communities.

There are works that i put off for a long time - after that long time i don't have the courage to do to it anymore because everyday they gets heavier, not the physical labor to get the work done but the mental power to overcome to get the work done. I think that somewhere in my mind ask me "It's been a month and you haven't make any progress, how could you get it done now?" even though the work could be done within 15 minutes of concentration.

Once the work that i put off for so long is done, the tremendous amount of joy flushing. Now I'm writing this post out of nowhere but after finishing a video that i put off for a while. I haven't seen the magic yet but the first thing is the joy that i defeated something big, and the victory within me is way bigger than the victory everyone else see, maybe it's just a video to someone else but a new achievement to myself.

I think that the real magic is that something i avoid is actually a new thing that i don't know where it leads to but uncertainty. That's why it's so scary for me to put it off that long. That uncertainty could be something great waiting for me ahead or it could be something that doesn't lead anywhere. Nevertheless, i have to try and find out.