Meditation The Things In Our Control I think and wrote about the things that are not in my control a lot but never really think about the things in my control. What if i practice to be able to detach from things that are not in my control, but neglect all the things i could control
Meditation Stay With The Pain, Don't Shut This Out In the last month, i found myself trying to escape the pain and discomfort while being at home. At lunch, i reached the phone to open Youtube and tell myself a really stupid reason "It's lunch, i will stop after finishing lunch", turns out lunch takes
Meditation There's No Perfect Moment. Now And Today Is All I've Got My friend came and visit me yesterday, the thing is that I've never met before and she will stay at my place for a while. If it was me in the past then i would panic because everything is not perfect – my place is a mess, I'
Meditation When Someone Trust You, They Actually Giving You Power To Hurt Them I just came to realize this while writing the other post about "Now and Perfect Moment". But that one friend came to live with me for a while really trusted me. That friend just handed me the power of abandonment without me realizing it. Say, when someone trust
Meditation If I Keep Thinking Or Writing About Something. Maybe It's A Part Of My Identity There are people that fought bravely against something. Sometimes, there's a news that a person who has nothing keeps fighting against an organization for years relentlessly. The thing they fought against became their identity, without that thing they would be nothing. When they are being mentioned, it'
Meditation Future Is An illusion I keep looking forward to something in the future, the moment it happens, it become the past. "If i pass this exam, i will buy something good for myself". The moment i know i passed the exam, it already passed. Maybe what i really want is the action
Meditation On Looking Back And Be Good Tomorrow I just had a look at my old posts, there are posts that i think they are a long time ago but not even a month yet. Is that because there are many things happened in the past month? Or is it because i just lived my life? Good or
Meditation Unconscious Blame I learnt that take responsibility and do not blame other people, I'm very well aware of this and have applied it into my life for a while, but maybe i still blame people, i just chose not to talk it out. I will write down 3 examples: The
Meditation Don't Ask What You Can Expect From Life, Ask What Life Can Expect From You Instead First of all, asking for meaning in life is an act of passiveness. Suppose life will grant us a purpose but we have to wait a really long time, what are we going to do while waiting? Are we actively reaching out to life or waiting for the purpose to
Meditation We Don't Change, We Just Become Who We Want To Be I remember hearing this sentence in a video of "Accepting The Universe" channel on Youtube. I'm not sure if it's really this sentence or the one similar "We just become more of who we really are". If this was me a year
Meditation On Chances We Don't Take I will start by this anecdote that i have read somewhere now i cannot remember. A man has an issue with his anger, to the point that it affects his life deeply so he decided to go to the church and pray god to give him the power to not
Meditation Live Is Too Short Too Waste, Too Long To Suffer, Just Enough To Live I've been wasting time for a while, and it got worse lately – Instagram and Facebook Short really hit different when I'm alone and have no other coping mechanism. The thing that i realize is that i don't waste a couple of hour like i
Meditation On Not Wanting To Exist A couple of days ago, i asked myself what's the point of existing in this life. I was sick and lonely at the time and i didn't know any better than sitting at home and do literally nothing, didn't feel like hitting the gym
Meditation On My Underwater & Bubble Theory Underwater Context: I'm at a very low point of my life – nothing seems to matter, no one to talk to, don't know what the next move is, I'm free to do anything but don't know what to do. I came up with
Meditation The Same Things Make Us Laugh, Make Us Cry The quote is from Big Smoke in GTA San Andres, a character that is a homie but then built his own empire and turns his back on the main character, this quote kinda predicts how things turn out in the end of the game. This quote hits hard, especially in
Meditation On "The Magic Is In The Work We Avoid" I've always been a workaholic, even when the work doesn't bring any value or money. I'm well aware of where the workaholic thoughts within me come from, part of it came from the grinding community and blue pill red pill stuff. But today we
Meditation We always have a choice I read this a couple of days ago, now i cannot tell where i got this. Now i think that it could be from the "Accept the Universe" channel on Youtube, but i clearly cannot tell from which video. We could grasp this idea from simple thing such
Meditation On Wasting Time I've always heard people keep telling "Life is short", but how short is it? How could i tell if something is short if i don't have something to compare relatively? I ask this question not trying to sound smart but rather because I'
Meditation On Sharing Progress I made some progress, only a little in photography - found a person on Facebook who wants to collaborate on taking photo and that's it. Last week, i shared it with my friend in a coffee session because we ran out of thing to say during that conversation,
Meditation On New Situation I want to change things, change how the day goes by. I want to go out and fuck around but i don't really know where to go and what to do out there. There's no exposure for me out there, i always go to the same
Meditation On New Things And Time Just got my new phone case, kinda like the same as the previous one. I intended to buy the same as the previous one but couldn't find it, so i bought another one that is similar, the only difference is the texture. The latter has smooth texture but
Meditation On Someone Leaving I've been thinking about this. I gave myself time to heal, always thinking to myself that i need more time to find myself again. That's okay, i didn't give myself a specific time frame such such as after 1 month, you have to do
Meditation On Dopamine And Wasting Time Today, I looked back and found that I've been an addict for most of my life, I've been trying to quit this for around 10 years but i keep relapsing, it's very depressing. I kept telling myself every new year that i would quit
Meditation On Ego And Breaking Free From The Good Guy Syndrome Recently, i observed my thoughts and my act following my thoughts, a lot. My thoughts usually goes this way "ah, there's a pretty girl there, i have to act cool, don't trip, don't talk to her, don't look her in the
Meditation On Perfectionist I tend to make things perfect, I usually think that it's a good thing because if it's not perfect then it's mediocre. That mindset could work for others but for me it's works a bit different. I have "Nice guy syndrome&
